When I'm Gone...

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/Revelation/

Gazing at my pallid palms,

Releshing my mind in my mind,

Applauding the mystical carbine

My Eyes settled for irresistible siesta:

'A bizarre library with no soul around, 

Scary clown gripping a book emanating strange sound.

As I plucked the book and read

Thunder echoed inside my body.

Following the REVELATION,

I ran, rushed and dashed into a forest dense and deep.

I tumbled down, before I could calm

Managed to crawl through the littered leaves floor,

I flumped into a wooden stump and

Gazed at my pallid palms '

My eyes wide open now

Mind mediating between fantasy and actuality,

When blood streamed from my knees

NO DREAM !

Pondering each word from the Book

Hoping them to be distorted ,

But mind silently accepted the truth,

And hands rushed through the withered pages of my notebook…

/Last Birthday/

I'm inscribing each faces in my mind,

Each curves, ups and downs, and the symmetry,

Just this day and I'll set them all free.

Gifting Hosseini's bestseller, you wished me Birthday Bestie,

It is Thursday saying, you had to leave,

My eyes, seeing you leave, were pricking,

Beating machine inside me started ripping…

/Developing Seclusion/

Now, I'm Travelling widely, reading Murakami,

Before I'm Gone…

Feeling Sunrays, Dancing in waves,

Feeding Robins,

Days have passed.

Oblivious of Date and Time,

I write when Moon stares,

Listen to melody, when Sun cares !

I'm Building walls high, so no one reaches me,

Drawing Borders is essential, you know,

But,

My Pestilential Thoughts are still innocent.

And

I'm Quiet. 

But Quiet is not always peace.

By now, you have spotted my growing insularity

And I - my Breathe's Irregularity.

I cry, I try, to change whatever am I..

/My Love/

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And My Love,

I dream of you often,

Urge to see you before I rest in my coffin,

Urge to rest my head on your shoulder,

But my Love, now I feel colder !

I scream in pain with no hope of light,

So I admire my sorrows and 

Sometimes I borrow some more of it.

I peep at our memories through

 the crevices of my mind.

The clouds of love my heart carries,

Burden me,

With no one around, they turn darky,

They flood my soul, my heart and eyes,

Like a wounded wolf in dark forest cries…

/The Toughest Letter/

-Meeting the Dead-

Spurning the theories of what snuffed me,

Scraping all suspense,

I put my pain in a quote,

Here arrives the toughest letter I wrote:

'If the morning sun rises without me,

Mustered Robins mourn for me,

And you see me drowning in blood red, 

You would cry.

Holding my slitted wrist

Your tears would pass through my skin,

Your panicky eyes notice my note,

"Dear Bestie" - the first libretto I quote.

Another tear would meet the lifeless paper

Grieved moisture would fill the room,

as tear would disguise vapour.

As you progress, your hands would tremble,

My words would strike you :

"Don't worry, I'm already gone,

Gather other letters and rush to the lawn.

Burn them and see how smoke blackens the sky,

Wait until you see my hand waving at you 

Good Bye !"

Now you would come back,

Adore my pale face.

You cry out loud,

I won't be back dear, no matter how much you shout!

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-Answers-

Extinguishing your questions, I advance,

"My life - A Hoax Call

My Mind - Another Storm.

No drug could work, No SSRIs

My mind works differently, preternatural device."

"So, a revelation occurred in a forest a day,

I would turn evil the day, my thoughts kill a 

Cat Grey.

Mind would vanquish my Heart and

My Heart would Pray,

The following day, my beloveds would face the fate of Cat Grey !" 

An inherited curse, shall die with me, I say

But first, on your left lies a bouquet,

Deliver it to My Love, will You?

But don't you read the note in Blue…

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-Note in Blue-

"Hey, My Love !

I'm already gone.

A part of me lives in songs I Addressed,

They were for you,

Today

I confess.

Reminiscing your smile,

I will adore you from among stars,

Adore incomplete journey of ours.

Visiting my grave, doing a favour

You would drop your tears on it,

Feeling your warmth,

Listening your Heart beat,

Will cry my corpse underneath ... "

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-Dear Bestie-

Now, you Mr. Bestie,

I'm unenlightened if God welcomes me or Devil,

But having you, have always felt like Heaven.

Dying is not my will,

But for saving you, it's an obligation.

10s of my mistakes,

100s of your lectures,

200s of your apologies,

Were yet to be made,

My Bestie, I am really afraid,

I Miss You...

I'm sorry for calls unattended

For differences, distances that will never be mended.

But when you put your shoulders down and your eyes search for me,

Halt a little and look back at our memories.

A Gem for some and Pebble for some were I,

For you, Best creation of July..

-Morning without Me-

You slept holding my slitted hand,

My Dear, it's not fertile land, but

Desert Sand….

Here arrives the Sun and ten humans for my burial...

You gently put me inside the Blue Coffin

Cherishing my sunken eyes, 

You push my hair flicks behind my ear 

And cover my face with shroud.

Moving backwards, you would collapse,

You open your eyes in cemetery

For the last time, you inspect my face and capillary.

Gifting me Jasmine and smile

"Why left me too soon ?" you would cry,

But please, as you go, don't wish me 

GoodBye!

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-Traumatic Void-

Every night you will remember me,

Will look for me,

In Woods,

Near Sea Shore,

Under the Sky

And Memories...

You will spell my name as it rains,

I will be in Raindrops,

You will watch the sky,

I will be with Robins,

Waving my hands at you,

But you won't see me...

I will feel empty.

You will feel empty.

A Traumatic Void...

Sun will still rise,

Cloud will still gather,

My Bestie!

Even when

I'm Gone ! '